high maintanence

2008-08-24T04:29:00.001+08:00

2008-08-20T02:54:00.001+08:00

i'm moving.
need a new space to begin my new life without you.
you've done nothing but hurt me for so long.
i'm not taking it anymore.

catch me if you can.

2008-08-19T03:46:00.004+08:00

watched basketball today.

spain against angola.

spain is so like, lazy.

i mean the way they play is like,

they're so soft.

you know?

watch then you'll know what i'm talking about.

#6 on the team, ricky, 17 years old.

took time off high school to compete in the olympics.

best player on the team.

honestly.

if you watch you'd know.

last 2 photos, are from the olympics this year.

he has gorgeous eyes.

by the way, selena gomez looks stunning at the alma awards.

gorgeous marchesa gown.

absolutely gorgeous.!

2008-08-18T01:24:00.001+08:00

its so fucking over la ok.
once and for all.
ya, happy fucking birthday to me!

2008-08-18T00:40:00.002+08:00

michael phelps.
rafael nadal and novak djokovic.
told you they were friends.

michael phelps has a disgusting mouth ok.
his smile is so weird, and he has monkey ears!
not nice la!
i cant find that photo i saw yesterday.
when he was smiling properly.
the middle of his top lip sinks in,
and the sides pop out.
his teeth are huge, and i cant stand his ears.
i dont know, maybe its just the way those giants look.
but he is such a good athlete, i cant stand it.
such a good swimmer.
won gold in every event.
shattered countless world records, AND olympic records.
stands alone in history to have won 8 gold medals at one olympics, and 14 gold medals in his entire career.
all that, at only 23.
fucking amazing.

novak djokovic got the bronze medal.
good for him.
i'm so proud!
BUT I DIDNT WATCH THE MATCH! AND I AM SO ANGRY LA OK?!
dammit!
oh, and djokovic is taller than nadal.
he's so hot.
and his eyes are gorgeous.
he's such a good player.
though against nadal, he definately could have done better.
but i think the weather in china is unbearable for those europeans.
its like 70 - 90% humidity most days,
unlike europe, where the air is mostly dry.

2008-08-17T03:44:00.002+08:00

OMFG micheal phelps!
i wish you swam for singapore, so you could have at LEAST $7 FUCKING MILLION DOLLARS when you get back!
but i bet the states offers a better bargain.
not sure.
will research.
ANYWAY!
HE WON HIS 7th GOLD MEDAL TODAY IN BEIJING.
and i absolutely admire him.
he's such a good athlete ok?1
he broke 6 world records, 7 freaking gold medals, and he's only 23 years old!
thats like, barely even fully adult yet.
like, to me, you fully become an adult at like 27 at least.
thats when you begin to become 'square'.
so anyway, the USA has like 50 over medals, not as many gold medals as chine though, but still, more medals in total.
was watching cycling - track, today.
and the polish riders bike kinda like, did some weird thing, and he fell, right smack into the rider from the netherlands.
i was like OMG!
the track is super duper steep, and its parquet.
so you could get splinters if you fall hard enough at a really fast speed.
they cycle at like 70km/h and their feet are strapped onto the pedals, so if you fall, you're sure to get hurt.
sucks doesnt it.
cuz you cant put your legs down to stop yourself from falling.
and if you're right at the top of the track, OMG.
sure pain la!
you fall sooooo far down, and such a fast speed.
malaysias cyclists didnt make it into the finals.
um, spain won the gold medal for the cycling - track today.
spain won the cycling even also, earlier this week.
the great wall of china track, like alomst 200km, uphill.
i could never do that.
i could never cycle constantly at 70km/h.
neither could i ever swim the butterfly style, or freestyle so damn fast.
i cannot be an olympian la ok?!
thats what they call olympic athletes, by the way.
ya.
michael phelps is the best shit ever.
kick ass body, but his face isnt too good.
i dont like.
but i fucking love his damn body la!
he's so tall and nicely muscular.
super long legs, and super long body, super long arms.
soooo many gold medals.
um, i believe its 13 gold medals in total now.
for michael phelps.
i'm watching the USA closely.
hoping they beat china to the gold medals.
fucking hell, they got to wear RALPH LAUREN for the opening ceremony!
like, thats what yoou get for being an american athlete.
all of them, like, at least 100 of them.

rafael nadal beat novak djokovic in tennis last night.
i knew nadal would win,
but i was rooting for djokovic in the end.
after seeing how good he is,
he runs really fast.
and is SUPER GORGEOUS.
serbian hottie.
nadal looks a little like an ape, sorry.
and i was so sad for roger federrer when he lost to james blake.
i was like, 'can you play properly PLEASE?!'
he lost, and you could see how disappointed he was.
it was so sad.
he hasnt had a good year.
hope he does better in the, um, i cant remember what his next competition is.
but i hope he does better.
anyway, nadal and djokovic always paly against each other, so they're like, friends,
and its so cute to see competitors helping each other or like, patting each other on the back and stuff.
so cute.
anyway, nadal won, and djokovic was so sad!
omg.
i felt so damn sad for him. you should have seen his face.
then they hugged, and djokovic walked off the field so fast.
but not as fast as federrer though.
he walked off so damn fast.

and womens tennis, and basketball and cycling and diving dont interest me.
i dont know why.
the men do it better.
but i like both men and women, swimming (ok la), gymnastics, athletics etc.
though the mens volleyball, their shorts are so damn small.
ugh!
so stupid la!
didnt watch anyway.
OH
and the USA basketball team is THE SHIT MAN!
do you have any idea how good they are?!
omg.
they win every match they play!
the match against spain tonight, was so good.
that 17 year olf spanish boy is hot, and the best player on the team.
he stole the ball from the usa so quickly, they didnt know what hit them,
but the states won by 20 points or so.
obviously.
and, i cant remember who, knocked down a spanish fella by mistake, and the spanish was fouled.
but my sis and iwere screaming 'HE DIDNT SEE HIM THERE! HE WAS LOOKING THE OTHER WAY! WHAT THE HELL!'
he did.
poor thing.
dammit cant remember who it is la!
but he was like, sorry, like, he patted his back and said something.
how cute.
but the american team is HUGE!
and they're a bunch of best players in the world.
they could easily take the gold.
we'll see.
the next summer olympics will be held in london,
david beckham is flying to china next week for the closing ceremony,
representing london.
we'll see how that goes.

its 4am and i still cant sleep.
damnit!

2008-08-14T02:15:00.002+08:00

i like..

looking out my balcony window is my new favorite thing to do in the whole world.

the sky was absolutely stunning today.

a little lumpy,

but the light was amazing.

anyway,

been watching the olympics.

and micheal phelps is amazing!

5 matches, 5 golds.

the USA is doing great.

i'm rooing for them all the way.

phelps has 11 gold medals to date.

what an amazing swimmer.

he was definately born to swim.

he breaks every record everytime he competes.

even with goggle problems.

his goggles fill up with water everytime he dives in,

so he counts his strokes and hopes he's dead on the turns.

if not for that, he coulds definately go faster.

he is definately one great athlete, who already has made olympic history,

and in that, stands alone.

he has the most golds in history.

he still has a few more events, fri sat and sun.

we'll see how that goes.

he already has 5 golds, so he couldnt possibly go home disappointed.

what an amazing athlete.

watched sailing for a bit today, singapore was dead at the bottom of the whole list, with the most points,

which means we're the biggest losers.

they are the biggest losers.

i definately DONT expect a medal.

maybe in the next 16 - 20 years.

once our athletes get to olympian standards will they win anything.

we're such a young country compared to the others.

our athletes are not as strong as others.

we dont have much history on our hands.

out sports industry isnt that big yet.

it will be in due time, but not right now.

singapore has alot to do.

our only industry striving is the banking, and trading, and those basics.

the fashion industry, the sport industry, the art industry are all not developed to its full potential.

singaporean parents have to stop telling their kids to put their dreams on hold to make time

to strive to do well academically.

because in singapore, thats the only way to make it in life.

not true.

everywhere else, kids have the opportunity to develop their creativity skills and become great artists and do well in the fashion and sport industries.

in singapore, if you tell someone you wanna be a fashion designer,

they tell you that you wont make it.

hello?!

look at ashley isham, shelia sim, daniel boey, mannequin.

there are successful singaporeans in the fashion industry.

maybe not internationally,

but there are.

and in 30 - 40 years, singaporean designers, models etc. might just be recognised all over the world.

'you're the soundtrack of my summer.

and your eyes are the brightest of all the colors.

i miss talking to you.

i miss you.'

2008-08-13T02:33:00.002+08:00

my dreams mean nothing.
dreams are the thoughts way way back in your mind.
it tells you what you think you want,
and what cannot happen.

someone tell me what ships, adoption, dogs/puppies, beer, cigarettes, crowded streets
all mean.

2008-08-10T02:33:00.002+08:00

stop coming back.
you make me sick inside.
the feelings are finally going away.
dont make me hurt anymore.
'hating you is the most exhausting.
and i dont wanna do it anymore.'
but we cant be friends.

'Let me take you down, cause Im going to
Strawberry fields
Nothing is real
And nothing to get hung about
Strawberry fields forever' - john lenon

2008-08-09T02:50:00.000+08:00

this is how i feel about you.

2008-08-07T02:19:00.001+08:00

damn fucking blogger!

i typed this whole damn fucking long post on fall winter 08

and it didnt publish.

fuck it man.

seriously.

2008-08-05T03:46:00.002+08:00

neil patrick harris,
is damn freaking hot.

i still miss you.

2008-08-04T03:26:00.003+08:00

i still want you to turn to me,
walk towards me,
look me in the eyes,
stroke my hair,
and kiss me.
a kiss that will last forever.
let me know i'm the one.
love me.
i'm still waiting.
i know its wrong, but it feels so right.
i still wanna be on that bike with you.
tell me you want me to hold you.
smile and look away.
i feel you in my dreams.
you surround the emptyness i have for you.
you live secretly in my dreams,
in my mind.

its all over.
it never even begun.
but i'll still run after you in my dreams.
i'll still be waiting to see you smile at me.
i'll still be waiting for those brown eyes to take my soul,
those hands to comfort me,
those lips to please me,
that kick ass body in front of me.
i'll see you in my dreams.

'i'm waiting for it to pass.' - derek shepherd

2008-08-04T02:05:00.000+08:00

meet squaakee.

vivo with baby and mei today.
didnt do much.
i dont wanna go out alot cuz i dont wanna spend money la.
anyway, superdog again.
then we rummaged through the sales after baby left for work.
sat outside, at the nice place where we took all these photos.
then starbucks, then agian, i felt like katong laksa.
begged mei to go.
and it was so god damn worth it man.
though we stuffed ourselves with ice cream for her, and mashed potatoes for me.
for no apparent reason.
i dont have to eat for the next two days.
haha.
it was so funnny.
we were laughing and trying to finish it before the bus came,
but all we could do was laugh.
i threw away like 1/2 of the potatoes, and she threw away the best part of the cone cuz the bus came.
see la.
haha

audrey!
i went to squeeze the damn blackhead on the top of my lip out today.
and it was so damn satisfying to see it finally out!.
but my damn lip is fucking hurting now.
and you can see that its red in the photos.

i didnt sleep at all by the way.
i slept at like 8am.
woke up at 12pm.
and i'm still awake now.
go figure.
going tanning tomorrow.
gotta wake up early.

2008-08-02T02:44:00.002+08:00

cycling at changi beach was fun today.
watched the sunset.
then cycled till the end of changi.
where i found like a gazillion lizards,
and all i wanted to do was get out.
ugh.
gross gross gross.
anyway, stingray and veges for dinner again.
yummy.
and then cruiser, which by the way, is much nicer than breezer.
cant deny that.

okok.
talking about my birthday stuff with auds.

2008-07-31T02:36:00.002+08:00

i'm still waiting for it to pass.

'the night is darkest just before the dawn'

2008-07-29T03:46:00.002+08:00

baby and i went to tm to buy stuff to cook dinner.
and it was good.
we had like, fried beef, which i loved.
and daddy had the rib eye steak.
mei was sick today, so she was so like, sober.
haha.
dying donkey, and split personality rabbit.
inside joke.
for my reference,
today, i had the small bowl of waffle crisp.
yum.
and the beef with rice for dinner.
then the yummiest yougurt ever.
gonna get more tomorrow.
then, wholemeal bread with cream cheese.
not too bad.
tomorrow i'm gonna eat the salad i bought.
hope its good.
i hope its iceberg lettuce.
i hate romaine lettuce.
eee.
but i love the purple-ness of the red cabbage la!
i cant stand it.

auds, i need to talk to you,
text me asap.

and i have like $70 credit from baby.
so, when i get my allowance and all this thurs,
i am going to buy the purple/yellow maxi dress from f21.com
oh, hope and pray its still avail then.
its like $34.48 sing dollars!
how damn fucking cheap is that man!
i mean, compared to the price you'd pay for the same thing in singapore.
like $100+ at least.
bull shit man.
and please oh god please, NEVER bring urban outfitters to singapore.
i dont care if i always have to wait for a spree.
i'd rather wait than have the same clothes as every other ah lian/typical poly student/minah in singapore.
(exact same situation with topshop)

'that skank whore bitchy ah lian-y slut of yours.'

2008-07-28T03:18:00.002+08:00

went to swensens for dinner.

it was gooood.i had the grilled chicken salad.

it was ok, just that the chicken was cold.

i would have prefered it warm at least.

mei came after she bought the present for her friend.

she had the mac and cheese,

which is good too, but too creamy for me.

audrey, you'd like it.

baby had the salmon and mushroom baked rice.

it was sooo good, but super salty.

i think its the fish.

(yes, i konw everything was 'sooo good'. but it was)

and as of tonight, i am starting my salad diet.

i'd eat anything salad, only.

got those pre packed salads from NTUC that day.

only got one to try, but it has baby carrots in it, and the purple cabbage, which i love.

its pre-tty.

MY F21 stuff is arriving this week.

i am so excited.

and it didnt take long,

like the previous spreees.

dont know why.

but i am so excited.

cant wait for my new dresses.

and yes, WE NEED A URBAN OUTFITTERS SPREE.

I got my birthday money like a month in advance,

daddy gave it to me today,

so i have money.

quick, before i spend it.

baby owes me $24, so i have that credit.

and the $5 that i won, collecting it tomorrow to put into the piggy bank.

and i am saving money like mad.

this weeks allowance, i'll save 50%.

and for the next 4 weeks.

i have to have strong will power.

i must save!

i love the feeling of saving.

haha.

ok.

good night world.

the very saddistic, depressing world.

with the little flickers of light, that make it better.

2008-07-28T02:26:00.003+08:00

auds: i was just thinking of cutting my hair. wanna get bangs. but i am still not decided.
erin: OMG! i was so good to see you too! i screamed so loud, i swear.
nicole: hellp gorgeous. sorry i didnt answer your call. was busy. havent had a chance to talk to you. we'll catch soon. promise me.

i heart cigarettes & alcohol.
next week, make a date with me.
we'll hang out late in the night.
drink, get high and have fun.
call me. (the old number.)
:)

'stop the clocks and turn the world around.
let your love lay me down.
and when the night is over,
there'll be no sound.
lock the box and leave it all behind.
on the backseat of my mind.
and when the night is over,
where will i rise?'
- oasis

2008-07-26T02:22:00.004+08:00

mei's concert was so good!
she looked so cute.
and i saw daphne siew cheng and erin.
and i didnt know they came!
i was so surprised.
haha.
we didnt go to the club cuz it was late and the restaurants were closing.
then we went to the esplanade to look for food,
but nothing good.
so we just went to macs at tm.
baby and i took the train.
mummy fetched mei on the bike.
mummy fetched baby to VT today.
haha.
daddy took me.
and i wore the cute leather helmet.
today was good.
but i left my coffee bean at home when i was rushing out.
:(
its freezing up in the freezer now.
and i'm going to stop smoking.
after this pack,
no more.
unless its a party.
or i get to drink.
haha.
then maybe.
but i dont want to smoke like everyday.
just now after macs, mei bas and i wanted to get vodka from 7 eleven,
but it was late and we were all tired,
and bas has work at like 9am tomorrow.
mei has her second concert.
so, not tonight.
but soon.
we'll spend late nights hanging out drinking, smoking and having fun.
like most of the time.

and auds, we have to go for sakae again soon.
i'm craving it non stop.
and mango shopping for heaven sake!

xoxo.

by the way, chace crawford has the most gorgeous blue eyes. like, dark deep blue. oh my god.

2008-07-25T02:58:00.002+08:00

my 2nd year anniversary was simple.
and the best ever.
i couldnt be happier, or more in love with anyone.
he totally understands everything.
and he didnt even doubt my slightly after i told him about
that jerk.
*yup, auds, i told him.
he didnt even flinch, which is good.
i was hoping for that.
because ____ doesnt mean anything to me.
he's just another jerk.
who chose a skanky whore over an amazing girl.
*have yet to meet her

anyway, baby came over.
got my daily dose of kisses and cuddles.
then we went to kfc for lunch at like 3+
right before he went to work.
and tomorrow,
we're going for mei's concert.
the club after, for dinner.
i still dont know what to wear.
and probably raffles city/marina square before all of that.

i miss:

your crazy antics in class - shouting for no reason, eating celery and grapes with you.

the 4 of us talking non stop right in front of class, laughing at every single thing.

recess.

bubbletea, motorbike ice cream and 7 eleven with you after school everyday.

the time everyone in class got along.

our free periods.

being able to go to school, to the same faces everyday, and not ever get sick of it.

secondary 4.2 '06

our school uniform

subway with olive and cheese.

carls jr.

waiting in the marina square subway most days after school to see you.

having literature, and english.

morning assembly.

SAC, and everyone who made it the best years of my life.

i'd give anything to go back for a day.
anything.
i have to go down to SIM on sat.
dammit.
so damn far.
and i have to quickly turn 18, so i can go get my bike license,
so i can ride to school everyday.
and, OH!
i won $5.00 today.
in the scratch and win thing baby bought for me.
haha
i was so excited
at first i thought it was $500, but then i looked properly.
but its still exciting!
i've never won anything ever, in my life.
till now.
and it was like, my second card.
haha
baby scratched so many cards before, and he didnt win a thing.
but the $5 goes into his anniversary present.
so, its still his.
:)
i still havent fixed my sound card.
dammit.
baby was supposed to do it for me today
but we got too lazy.
ok.
its 3.15 am once again.
see you tomorrow morning.

2008-07-24T00:54:00.002+08:00

spent today with baby.
watched the dark night.
and heath ledger, is amazing!
like, he is the best shit ever.
he played the role so well.
i mean, in real life, he's like this really shy boy,
but on screen, it was like he really was another person.
definately emmy and oscar worthy.
definately.

sitting in my room smoking non stop.
( i should really stop. like NOW.)
waiting for tomorrow to come.
2 years, officially.
excited!
my room smells of burning plastic.
yuck.
so i cant switch on my air con yet.

okok.
i'm planning my birthday thing.

2008-07-23T01:13:00.003+08:00

we started dancing,
getting crazy on the dance floor.
come and dance with me,
i'll show what you're looking for.

2008-07-22T00:26:00.005+08:00

someone take the pain away.

i wish my life was a movie.

then i'd be the best friend,

that you'd fall in love with in the end.

'i dont even know you,
you wont even know i'm gone'

2008-07-21T00:44:00.007+08:00

oops.

i got both dresses.

thought she only ordered one.

so, YAY!

i am happy again.

haha.

havent found a UO spree.

seems no one wants to spree UO,

or the spree caps are always reached in like, 1/2 an hour.

i feel like ordering on my own.

but i dont wanna pay shipping for my few items.

eh, laura, we can share.

but i have to check the shipping and save first.

haha.

next week, i can.

okok.

i cant wait for my f21 stuff!

haha

and my damn msn is fucked up again.

my skin seems to be clearing up,

i hopt it clears completely.

i need more clarins.

and the neutrogena fine fairness mask, is the shit man.

love love love it.

but i dont wanna be fair.

being tan makes me look skinnier.

and makes my 'abs' look like more refined.

because of the shadows.

anyway, i have yet to try the hydrating mask by neutrogena.

i bought the fine fairness sample masks, at $1.95 each at watsons the other time.

there isnt anymore.

the box of 5 is like $20 - $30+.

what the hell right?!

but neutrogena is good.

maybe i should get the clarins clay mask,

but its so messy.

i just need clear, transparent skin.

then i'll be a little happier about my body.

haha.

one less thing to worry about.

i havent been keeping to my 100 crunches a night regime.

i am going to make sure i do 100 tonight.

at least.

and 30 on each leg, of those scissor thingies.

i dont know what they're called.

but they help your thigh muscles.

good, good.

haha

'if you dont see me for who i am, your loss'

2008-07-20T01:27:00.003+08:00

so..when the spree organiser ordered the items,
the second dress, the pink and lime one was already out of stock.
dammit.
i was looking forward to that one more.
anyway, i have a new navy dress!
cant wait for it to come.

and audrey, come online please!!
i need to talk to you.

i miss my boyfriend.
cant wait to see him tomorrow.

i need urban outfitters.
someone open a spree please.
i need my fix.
and being online, i so god damn boring now.
nothing to do.
probably cuz i'm online like, in the middle of the night,
and everyone is asleep.
but still.
i want more celeb gossip!

'hot pink nails, cigarettes & alcohol'

2008-07-19T16:41:00.000+08:00

f21 spree.

yay!

2 dresses for like, less than $50.

plus the shipping and everything will be less than $60.

f21.com is so damn cheap la.

compared to the actual retail store.

i still wanna get 2 more dresses, but i have to wait 2 weeks.

next thursday is our 2nd year anniversary,

and we're going to get my swarovski ring,

and whatever baby decides on.

his puma sunglasses arent there anymore.

and puma, surprisingly, makes nice mens sunglasses.

womens, not so.

but the sweats for women are nice.

so anyway, yep.

2 years.

super excited.

omg.

haha.

like, since 2006, which seems damn far away now.

but right now, i cant imagine life without him.

wouldnt it be boring?

like, something would be missing.

and he's amazing.

he understands me inside out.

and knows me by heart.

he finishes my scentences, does things i think about, when i said nothing.

would give me anything i ask for.

i cant believe i almost threw all that away,

when i know he's the best for me, and there isnt anyone else who could do what he does.

btu our tempers are equally drastic.

so imagine what happens when we fight.

all the screaming and shouting and cutting up stuff (mostly me. ok. only me).

but he doesnt hit me, obviously.

or it wouldnt be 2 years.

and we have unimaginable food cravings.

like, if one of us says 'laksa', we have to have it, or we'd both go to bed craving it.

or stingray from changi.

cycling, then dinner.

which is always fun.

and we do the dorkiest things.

he'd laugh at me all the time.

and i'd be like, 'stop laughing at me!'

haha.

i cant wait to start school la.

i am so damn bored.

2008-07-19T00:33:00.002+08:00

hello all you gorgeous people!

haha.

was supposed to meet auds today, but i didnt.

i'm sorry!!

oops.

still bored at home.

editing photos.

i shall share.

its all me though, so dont get sick of it.

haha.

havent done much.

dont really wanna work, but i'm looking.

um, read the super cute story about the multi racial twins.

the twins from the same mother, came out black and white.

as in, one black, one white.

the odds are like one in a million.

or gazillion, more like it.

the mother is african, father german.

and its so cute.

both boys.

like, they're TWINS.

as in, in the wonb at the same time.

and i think its amazing that they came out two totally different skin colors.

imagine, a pair of triplets who came out white, black, and chinese!

haha

omg that would just be like, a one in a trillion.

2008-07-18T00:31:00.002+08:00

Candle (sick And Tired) lyrics

I took a ride on a February morning,
Just getting over it and dealing with the mourning,
I started thinking out loud:
I'm so sick and tired of being sick and tired,
My baby's flying off the edge of the road,
She's saying, "I'm so sorry about that note",
That left me all alone, B
ut I'm so sick and tired of being sick and tired

Somebody turn the lights on,
Somebody tell me what's wrong,
I'd be lying if I told you,
Losing you was something I could handle,
Somebody turn the lights on,
Somebody tell me how long,
All this darkness will surround you,
Cuz I'm burning for you,
Burning like a candle

Seven days since I've seen your face,
Seven nights I have laid to waste,
I'm burning out now,
I'm sick and tired of being sick and tired,
I know we're hanging at the end of the road,
We've flown too high, make a swarm too low,
I heard a screaming out loud,
I heard a screaming out loud

Somebody turn the lights on,
Somebody tell me what's wrong,
I'd be lying if I told you,
Losing you was something I could handle,
Somebody turn the lights on,
Somebody tell me how long,
All this darkness will surround you,
Cuz I'm burning for you,
Burning like a candle

Think,
All the things that you say,
What are the things that you mean,
What are the things that you say to me,
Cuz your tradgedy,
A queen for his majesty,
All these plans for me,
Your kingdom is crumbling,
You're a tradgedy,
A queen for his majesty,
All these plans for me,
Your kingdom is crumbling,

Somebody turn the lights on,
Somebody tell me what's wrong, I
'd be lying if I told you,
Losing you was something I could handle,
Somebody turn the lights on,
Somebody tell me how long,
All this darkness will surround you,
Cuz I'm burning for you,
Burning like a candle

Burning for you,
Burning like a candle,
Burning for you,
Burning like a candle

sick ass song!
love it.

2008-07-13T23:43:00.002+08:00

i hate everything right now.

and i hate that i love you.

2008-07-13T01:05:00.004+08:00

coffee bean, mmmm...

saturday.
grandfather's birthday.
then tm with sister.
coffee bean.
shopping.
home.
boring, i know.
haha

2008-07-12T02:08:00.003+08:00

one of my all time favorite songs.

songbird - Oasis

...three, four
Talkin to the songbird yesterday
Flew me to a place not far away
She's a little pilot in my mind
Singin songs of love to pass the time
Gonna write a song so she can see
Give her all the love she gives to me
Talk of better days that have yet to come
Never felt this love from anyone

She's not anyone
She's not anyone
She's not anyone

A man can never dream these kind of things
Especially when she came and spread her wings
Whisper in my ear the things I'd like
Then she flew away into the night
Gonna write a song so she can see
Give her all the love she gives to me
Talk of better days that have yet to come
Never felt this love from anyone

She's not anyone
She's not anyone
She's not anyone

and across the universe is one of my all time fav movies ever.
love love love it.
its incredible,
if you havent watched it,
go watch it now.
you wont regret it.
the music's mainly from the beatles,
you it could never go wrong
who doesnt like the beatles?
they're the best ever,
and always will be.
the best most memorable, most influencial band of the 20th century.
and till today,
we still want the beatles back!
their music will never die.
ever.

i heart you john, paul, ringo and george.

2008-07-11T15:47:00.003+08:00

its 3.45pm
and i jus woke up.
haha.
got my coldplay album yesterday,
and it is the best ever.
go get it.
coldplay is the best.
british music is so much better than american music la.
all american music is, is rap.
and stupid girl bands singing about things that arent important.
i love oasis too.
they have he best sound.
very beatles.
because their accent is so strong.
love it.

'i remember, we were walking up to strawberry swing.'

2008-07-10T00:18:00.001+08:00

why cant you let me in?

2008-07-09T01:08:00.001+08:00

tampines mall.
macs.
mango. found the perfect dress.
coffee bean.
home.

tomorrow: across the universe on demand tv.
yay.

2008-07-07T02:08:00.001+08:00

you didnt even say goodnight.

i feel like a complete idiot.

2008-07-05T03:22:00.001+08:00

from older posts.
damn super funny.
i am stil laughing to this day.

today mable and i were standing outside for accounts cuz we didnt bring out TYS i had the silica gel in my purse,so i decided to open it and throw it over the railing.we were sitting down so the windows were high behind usso then,mable was throwning the silica gel into class.and Mdm kee was standing at the doorand saw her.her face totally changed when she saw mdm kee.haha it was super funny then she put her hand on her head and pretended to touch her head.but her actions were so obvious that she was throwing something into class.haha.i was laughing my ass off.super funny!then she told us to stand up and went back into claswe were still playing a fool.like the idiots we are.hahaso she wanted to write 'ripcurl' that was on my purse .she wanted to trace itso she took my purse.and i was shouthing at her to give it back to methen i suddenly heard mdm kee's voice behind me.i got a shock!haha.mable was laughing at me.no wonder she suddenly became quiet and stop fooling aroundfor like one second.but i was laughing right in front of mdm kee.and she was. so damn irritated with me.i was like.. whatever man.

then nicole chai got hiccups.and mable told her to hold her breath for 10 minutes.and so some stupid thinkg to her heart.then when her hiccups finally went away,mable got the hiccup.and nicole chai and i told her to hold her breath for 10 mins and do that heart thing.haha!!!!!!!!!!!!we were laughing until out stomachs ached man.so damn funny.you had to be there to know what im really talking about.and mdm kee gave us peanuts to do some stupid activity withand mable, audrey and i ate our peanuthahai was like,.. lets eat it.and so we did.haha.then mable and i tried to tape the peanut shells back together.my peanut shells flew on the floor.when i turned to get tape from nicole.then mdm kee asked me where my peanut wasand i said on the floor.mable burst out laughing.i dont know why.

2008-07-05T00:33:00.001+08:00

sakae with auds today was soooo good.
all we did was laugh, talk loudly, eat, then complain about how full we were.
haha.
and she went shopping for her stuff.
we spent a whole damn day in tampines mall.
but it was well spent.

2008-07-04T02:09:00.004+08:00

2008-07-02T02:10:00.008+08:00

jessica stam.

i love her doll like features.

her lips are gorgeous.

i want nice lips.

like those on angela baby, the model auds just showed me.

i want lips like hers.

and i want killer cheek bones.

2008-06-30T02:44:00.004+08:00

why do we always want things we cant have?
why dont we realise what we have till its gone?
why do we fall for the bad boys?

oh my god!
i am unbelievably broke.
shit.
time to save money again!
i hate saving.
i can never do it properly.
like, i'll just buy stupid things.
i hate it.

and, i have to say this,
but i hate girls who are overly dependant on their boyfriends/girlfriends.
like, do you really have to be that dependant on someone?
AND I HATE HATE HATE kat deluna.
she's such a skanky whore!
she can join rihanna and be the epitome of MINAHS!
whom i hate to the damn bloody fucking core, by the way.
all of them.
all they do is smoke their lungs out, drink till they're pissed drunk,
fuck mahts, get pregnant and be scum of the earth.
there ARE nice malay people, whom i adore, but those disgustingly repulsive mahts and minahs just annoy the shit out of me,
and i'm so not afraid to say it.

and nicole, auds, mia, and everyone else (you know who you are), I MISS YOU SO MUCH!
nicole: we need to have our fab dinners again!
audrey: oh my god! we need to go shopping and have coffee bean.
mia: where the hell have you been?!
siew cheng: i miss you screaming at me. for some reason. haha.
daphne: i miss your awkward, i-have-nothing-to-say-to-you times. which is weird, but i still miss you.
phoebe: i miss your crazy shit.
erin: it was good to see you alst sunday, after like 8 months, even if it was for like 2 mins. dont drift away.
i miss all of you guys.
and everyone who i didnt mention, reading this, i miss you too.

"what hurts the most, is being so close."

"today was going to be the day that i was never going back to you"

i love you silently.
i love you secretly.
i love you from afar.
i love the way you look.

2008-06-27T00:18:00.002+08:00

model Jessica Stam, canadian, 22, is gorgeous!
oh my god.
i love love love her.
i'll post photos of her soon.

anyway, i am obsessed with coffee bean.
like, i'd walk to century square everyday just to get my regular mocha ice blend.
its the best thing in the world, and it always makes me happy.
my sis and i are obsessed.
we cannot go a day without it.
she loves the vanilla and pure chocolate,
and its always always always the mocha ice blend for me.
its the best thing ever created.
oh my.
i want some now.
i didnt get any today, probably why i'm talking about it.
haha.
i soent $6.60 a day on that.
everyday.
i have to stop.
its an expensive habit.
but i love it.
oh and i love my new neon pink nail polish too.
its so unbelievably spring summer 08.
oh!
and the chanel union jack bags are OUT!
yay!
they're gorgeous.
leather/velvet bags.
the details are to die for.
and agyness deyn has already been spotted with one.
probably cuz she did the photo shoot for harpers bazaar in march with the bag.
so she got it for free.
dont you hate the fact that rich people get expensive things for free?!
i totally hate it.

back to jessica stam.
she is gorgeous.
looked so good on the victoria secret runway last year.
she's dated DJ AM.
i love her man.
seriously.
she's so pretty!

i cant wait for my second year aniversary!
baby is gonna get me that ring in the window i've been pining over.
i absolutely cannot wait.

2008-06-25T02:14:00.002+08:00

so we didnt go to sentosa today.
we woke up at like 3.
damnit!
i really wanted to go.
guess i'm off the promised photos hook.
haha.
so anyway, we spent our 23 month anniversary watching get smart in tampines mall.
and sat out at the open place on the 4th floor, just like our first date.
how romantic!
i know.
haha.

my room is in a mess.
my bank account is empty,
and i'm craving those marc jacobs sunglasses i saw today.
another thing on my wish list.
11. marc jacobs sunglasses $199
i know!
how freaking cheap are they man?!
oh my god.
i was like, 'i'd totally get them without thinking' if i had the cash.
haha.
but i will soon.
soon.
saving.

i'm so kinda over my no fringe thing.
like, its so spring summer runway, but i feel like getting side swept bangs again.
like, not entirely no fringe, but its like, like my hair la ok.
cant be bothered to go into such detailed descriptions.
but i dont know.
someone talk me out of it.
i should just be bothered to blow dry it properly so it'll look nice again.
because my hair curls from my roots.
so it looks funny if i dont blow dry it properly on the front.
and my hair is really dry now and i gotta treat it.
kimage has the BEST hair treatment ever.
and my hairdresser can do the nicest bangs.
like, i got my best side swept bangs from him.
i loved it.
and i'm thinking of perming my hair again.
big curls or medium curls, but from my roots, or like 3/4 of my hair.
but i dont know.
still thinking about it.
i love curls though.
even though people say i look like vanessa hudgens.
nicole was the first one to tell me that,
and when i went to work, like, it was all my colleague could talk about.
haha.
he was like "oh my god.! you look so much like vanessa hudgens"
but i guess its a compliment.
i mean, she's gorgeous and her cheek bones are to die for.
but she's a skanky whore who has naked photos of her on the internet.
but i guess it isnt so big since she admitted it, and it died down pretty fast.
well, anyway, i want curls again.

miranda kerr is such a cutie!
and that body is kick-ass!

2008-06-24T00:27:00.002+08:00

this is my 445th post i've made on this blog.
haha.
so many!
so, sentosa tomorrow!
waking up early to get there, then all i have to do is enjoy the sun sand and surf.
i cannot wait.
and it wont be crowded because its a weekday and school just started.
yay!
i promise photos.

and i have an all new want list which i have yet to fufil.
1. Guess wedges $125.30
2. miss selfridge top $123
3. miss selfridge tote $123
4. chanel mat lumiere compact $81
5. levi's skinnies $150
6. summer dress
7. billabong top $60
8. hoodies and sweats
9. new la senza bras and panties (they have the best)
10. mango bag $82

but before all of that, i have to get/decide on basiles present.
i have no idea what to get.
he is so hard to shop for.

ok.
i'm myspace-ing now.
toodles.

2008-06-23T03:55:00.003+08:00

sunday.

not very eventful.

tampines mall.

got my magazines, nail polish remover.

canary yellow and hot pink nail polish, which i love!

they'll go so cute together.

haha.

um, gum.

i cant live without it.

home.

prata for lunch.

basile came over.

night market with bas and sis.

subway.

then mei got a ramly, which she ate and felt sick after.

bas too.

thank god i didnt eat it.

i told you it was damn rat meat!

haha.

got some photos that i've yet to post.

i will, soon.

once i get them into my computer.

and i'm planning my birthday party!

i know its like, 2 months from now.

but i'm gonna get things that need planning.

i'm not telling you what,

but it'll be a sentosa chalet for sure.

(i bit my tongue while i was chewing my gum today, and its still swollen now. i hate it. it hurts so bad!)

to my hunky munky,

there was never a choice. it was always you. i may fantasize, but when it comes to the real deal, its always been you.

cooking our lunches/dinners,

laying in the sand in the sun,

spontaneous picnics,

laying in the grass,

awesome bike rides,

katong laksa,

changi sting-ray,

spending days lying in bed,

finishing my scentences,

reading my thoughts,

making me smile,

hours talking about nothing,

making you scrapbooks,

listening to my obsessive rants of grey's anatomy,

never telling me someone else is hotter than i am,

loving me for me,

completing my soul,

being all smiley and cute, not fighting back, when i'm throwing my temper because i'm tired,

carrying my paper bag when i look like an aunty fiddling with it (haha!),

making me happy.

why would i give up all that for someone who could never live up to you?

never.

love,

hunny bunny.

2008-06-20T02:14:00.002+08:00

nicole's party was a bomb!
super fun.
haha.

havent gone to mango sale yet!
damnit!
tomorrow i am going.
i dont care.
i hope i can see basile tomorrow.
i miss him so much.
oh my god.

sex and the city is so good!
finally watched it with the girls today.
it was awesome.

2008-06-06T02:17:00.002+08:00

i cannot even count how muchi've spent these few days.
i've lost track.
and i'm starting to feel guilty, meaning,
the saving is kicking in right...NOW!.
got my miss selfridge sandals today.
perfect with my mango dress.
i'm so happy!
i made scented candles today.
bought those plain tea lights from ntuc.
$3.90 for 15 i think.
then i got the limited ed essential oil from body shop.
its called sail boat.
and it smells absolutely heavenly!
i think i wanna get the oil burner thing.
and like, 2 more bottles of that sail boat oil.
sooo good.
it smells better when its burned.
anyway,
so i mixed it all up, and voila!
i have my nice scented candles!
i'm happy now!
haha.

i'm saving up now.
for baby's anniversary present.
and my urban outfitters shopping.
its been a long time since i've shopped at urban outfitters.
i miss it so much!
i heart UO!

2008-06-05T02:50:00.001+08:00

2008-06-05T01:41:00.002+08:00

ok, audrey, i am blogging.
take your time reading this.

so, tuesday, was town, shopping, dinner.
went to get my isetan badges refunded.
only have the taka one left.
then sakae sushi for lunch.
it was so damn yummy.
except that they didnt have the fried scallops.
like was like "what the hell?! dammit!"
has everything else though.
then body shop, where i bought my organic face cotton circles and face scrub.
and the MTV lip butter.
tastes nice.
(yes i am unveiling every detail so this will be long.)
then, lucky plaza to sell my sony ericsson phone.
$100, not bad.
so after that i obviously couldnt resist going shopping.
so tangs it was.
bought bangles and a necklace from island shop.
(i love island shop)
i wanted to get the dress i wanted at the beginning of the year, but they only had it in a US10.
which is huge.
and i'm like a 4/6
so, i have to find another island shop.
then we went to wisma cuz i wanted to see what topshop had to offer, (at least i gave it a chance)
but oncce again, it proved me right.
everything is boring and common and every single person off orchard road was shopping there.
i couldnt wait to get out.
sorry all you topshop clones. i hate it.
then i saw these super cute pair of shoes that i want from miss selfridge.
so cute.
and sooo cheap!
i want.
cant wait to get them
i think its vivo this sunday
they have an outlet there right?
if not, someone tell me so i wont waste my time.
plus, it'll go sooo cute with the mango dress i bought today.
so cute.
ok, so then when we were walking to lido, past indochine, i said i wanted to go there cuz something smelt good, but we went to check out the movie times.
which werent good, so we walked alll the way back to indochine for dinner.
nude, to be exact.
it was good.
fish and chips.
margarita.
and the live band, is so damn good.
i swear.
so good.
and if its coming from me, its good.
i mean seriously, since when do i EVER support local music?
n-e-v-e-r.
till that band.
so anyway, then we took a long bus ride home, our favs.
love it.
and it was at like 11+pm, so there werent many people.
so it was good.
then home, baby stayed for a while.
a good day spent well.
yes it was.

then today,
it was just tm with mei.
just for fun cuz we had nothing to do.
she got the la senza hoodie she's been craving for for so long.
she got the last one!
ha!
haha.
then i had mos burger for lunch.
mango.
i want that billabong top.
billabong has such cute summer stuff now.
um, i want that gucci eau de parfumII.
i want money!
more money!
haha.
ok.

ya kun for breakfast tomorrow morning!
yay!
then i want sakae for dinner again!

2008-05-14T00:10:00.002+08:00

went to have katong laksa with basile today.
yummy
then home.
yes, we went all the way there, just to have laksa.

and i'm going on a diet again.
i need to lose like 20 pounds.
i start work again tomorrow, burberry,
so i'll try to not eat.
like only eat grain.
like wholewheat pasta and stuff.
or just salads or something.

i had this dream this morning/last night.
i was in this pool, (and i'll skip the juicy details of who it was and what we were doing.)
it was more of a jacuzzi than a pool, and there was this wall, and over the wall was the sea.
and there was this buffalo, two actually, bathing in the sea.
and i was like, "why the hell are they bathing in the sea?!" to this cute person who i am not mentioning,
and i said the most awkward thing, because of what we were doing, like, in real life, in that situation, you'd never say this, but in real life, a buffalo wouldnt be bathing in the sentosa waters.
so i said "dont they know that they shit when they bathe? and they use their tails to flick their shit all over the place?! thats so disgusting!"
and after i said that, he didnt wanna kiss me anymore.
haha!
omg.
so sad right?!
i know.
stupid dreams.
why couldnt i just NOT dream about the damn buffalo and it be a sunset instead?!

2008-05-06T23:21:00.003+08:00

hey hey hey!
subway with auds again today.
then shopping!!
went to mango, nothing new.
but auds bought this teal tank top that she looks gorgeous in!
like, really, skinny.
she has it in grey also.
then we went to la senza where we blindly picked the same bra, the sales girl gave us the same design to try on, just for the size,
i didnt know she got the same one too, we actually wanted a purple flower print one.
then when i came out and said i wanted the pink one, she was like,
me too!
haha.
so we have the same stripe kint top, and bra.
weird.
haha.
i wanna get these cute lounge capris from la senza.
in grey.
so comfy. $65 though.
shall save and wait.
then, she bought slippers from m)phosis.
and she blames me for her spending so much money.
like, yeah right its my fault.
haha.

i wanna get grey's anatomy stuff from abc.com
like, seriously.
haha
soon la.
end of the month.

ok, so audrey, i've done my part authentically blogging.
now its your turn!

2008-05-05T03:09:00.003+08:00

god, i want you to want me.
leave her, pick me.
love me.
lust me.
you dont know how much
i lust for you.
and you dont even know i exist.
just one night.
just for one night, lust me.
no, love me.

- cheyanne

2008-04-12T22:40:00.001+08:00

i hate all of you.

2008-04-08T02:33:00.002+08:00

i start school tomorrow.
omg.
3 years, non stop of more work to be done.
but the light at the end of the tunnel is worth it.
i've been so busy,
i dont even know the date, or time.
looking for another job that pays better.
yet to go to ralph lauren.
what am i working for?
all the bags and shoes i want.
what am i going to school for?
that degree, so i can earn even more money for my bags and shoes.
if only i could day dream all the time.
and it'd all come true.
then i'd have a huge house, an audi S8, a closet only for shoes, another only for bags, another only for couture, an audi convertible, a range rover, infinity designer pool, huge gym, puppies, and a job where i get paid for spending money.
oh, how good i would be at that.
haha.
time to pop back out of the clouds,
down to earth.

watched vantage point today,
it was a good movie.
really good.

toodles.

2008-04-02T00:28:00.002+08:00

ok.
so, the story about my store room guy.

saturday.
work.
went to the store room to count the damn stock, which i love.
which is weird.
but its funner than standing at the shelf doing nothing.
he was already walking in and out,
packing CK stock.
(CK and CK Jeans, are two totally diff brands)
the store room is quiet,
very quiet.
and warm.
and boring.
and dusty.
so we started talking.
blah blah blah.
we spent hours and hours in the store room together,
(sounds steamy doesnt it? haha. it sounds wrong. very wrong.)
and all i got was his surname,
school,
where he lives,
and i know that he's pure chinese,
looks eurasian,
doesnt speak chinese.
and goes to ngee ann poly, or is it nanyang.
3rd year engineering.

there.
happy?

back to important things.
off today.
relaxed all day.
loved it.
baby came over.
watched tv.
ate.
more tv.
simply lazing around.
i feel good just thinking about it.
haha
its 12.40am, i start at 10am tomorrow, and i'm still here.
good luck me.
haha.
cant wait for my pay la!!
hurry up man!

2008-04-01T02:35:00.003+08:00

i am off tomorrow!
yay.
i finally get to relax.
not entirely.
still got all the stuff with school to get done.
advanced diploma.
i think i'm going to do a double major.
marketing and management.
i can get my degree in 3 years.
which is soooo good.

"the past is the future with the light on." +44

2008-03-30T23:59:00.002+08:00

balenciaga 2007
aquamarine giant gold city bag.

its mine for only USD$1645.00
and thank god the down payment is finalized.
i can finalluy look forward to my balenciaga.
then, my miu miu that i'm getting end of next month.
and the fendi anniversary baguette in black that is ordered,
and will be shipped in may.
yes, may.
i have to wait so long, for a bag i've already paid for.

singapore is so annoying.
they didnt even bring in the bag in black.
like hello?
thats a universal color.
everything brought into singapore has to come in black.
how are you supposed to match grass green, lemon yellow, or hot pink to any of the clothes already in your wardrobe?
and how often do you find suitable clothes to match those colors.
other than from marc jacobs.
(super cute yellow dress).
they brought in 3 of the fendi bag in pink, 4 in green and like 6 in baby blue,
(which is such an awful color, seriously).
and they only have those 3 colors.
the stock came in on weds.
no black.
i was like, SERIOUSLY?!
whatever, i have it.
so its fine.

but i have to wait till may!
ugh!!
but i'm even more excited about my balenciaga!
omg.
i cant wait man.
isnt it gorgeous?
the first time i saw it i didnt think much.
until i really looked at it.
then i was like, i have to have that bag!!

work sucks please!!
but i have to support my expensive taste,
so, the reward comes with the purchasing.
haha.
when i finally get to have those bags and tons of shoes charged to my card,
brought home,
and worn,
thats the "high" i love.

toodles.

*the cute store room guy story will have to wait.

2008-03-19T00:13:00.002+08:00

got my nails done today,
at marina.
got the temp nail tips and french.
love it.
but i cant type properly.
haha.
got french cuz i didnt know if i could work with nail art.
but the lady did it so well.
omg.
i love it.

and baby and i did our hair together at centrepoints hair inn.
love it.
got treatment as well.
but my hair is way too dry to only do it once and expect it to be the way i ultimately want it.
kimage next week.
then i can get my hair trimmed even more.
like 2 inches off.
and their treatment is omg, the best ever!
i love love love it.
training tomorrow.
i only wanna start work next week.
we'll see la.
if they're gonna pay me this month,
then i dont mind working this weekend.
if not, i'll start mon.

after my hours worth of training tomorrow,
its vivo gold class to watch 'the spiderwick chronicles'
i cant wait.

as for school, i'm going to hartford.
to do the advanced diploma in business (marketing).
part time.
so i only go to school twice a week,
from 7pm to 10pm.
then i only need one year to get my bachelor.
so, alls good.

2008-03-17T03:18:00.003+08:00

baby and i are dying our hair tomorrow.
i might perm my hair.
might might might.
selling my LV bag tomorrow.
then going to do my hair, then mango shopping.
theres a reason for the mango shopping, but i'm not telling you what.
otherwise, there wont be anymore for me.
but theres this really cute dress i want.
and the shoes in the window are so hot.
getting those.
then i'm going shopping at tiffany & co.
ok. i've told enough of my life for you to read my blog.
so,
toodles!

2008-03-13T00:11:00.002+08:00

i cant believe none of you told me anything about saturday.
seriously.
none of you.
dont even try to talk to me.

2008-03-05T23:48:00.002+08:00

i have the bestest friend ever.
like, seriously, seriously.
nicole looked for schools online yesterday for me
because i told her i had no where to go.
(technically, not no where, i just couldnt find one)
so she went online, and talked to me on the phone at work,
helping me look for a school.
and i was like
"oh my god, she's so good to me."
seriously.
i could never be more thankful for someone like that.
although, when you said "even you and erin" i was like,
wait..what?
i mean, yoou know.
but yeah, i dont think much about it la.
haha.
anyways, i'm stoked about saturday.
super excited.
i'm saving money though, so i cant spend alot.

i cant wait for baby to buy me the bear from buid a bear!
its adorable, and it reminds of my dog.
thats why i chose THAT one.
ooh.
i cant wait.

2008-03-01T01:19:00.002+08:00

dior interview was good.
i seriously hope i get it.
omg.
i cant wait.
dior has the super cutest damn shoes ever!
like, oh my god.
i was freaking out, and trying not to show it.
super cute shoes.
spring/summer 2008 is gonna be good man!
for any fashion house.
oh, and i love Bally.

how i love sexy boys.
sexy WW2 sailors.
sexy CK models.
sexy boy models with sexy girl models in a sexy photoshoot,
thats sexy.

2008-02-20T00:22:00.002+08:00

sick sick sick.
bad bad flu.
like, so bad.
i cant sleep bacause my body temp is so high.
my head is spinning and is going to explode.
my throat feels like sand paper.
i slept for 2 hours last night.
thats all.
only could go to sleep at 7 in the morning,
woke up at 1.
went over to baby's place.
slept more.
till 4,
then vivo to hogs breath cafe for dinner.
baby got my flu too.
so we're both so sick.
went shopping at french connection in tangs,
(my new fav place to shop, they have everything)
bought a super super cute grey babydoll jacket,
and a ruched pink top.
and the gisele bundchen sandals, brown.
then i happily went home.
haha
but all the way, baby sent me home,
and he's home sound asleep now.
and i'm awake.
ugh, i miss him so much.
and i feel like pastamania now.

2008-02-18T17:32:00.002+08:00

woke up at 4pm.
slept at 4.30am last night.
parts of my body hurt that i never knew i had.
and i dont know why.
its so irritating.
my back, my wrist, my arm, my ass, me leg.
probably because of bowling.
carrying that stupid 14 ball.
and yesterday, we were competing, who could hold their legs 45 degrees in the air the longest.
and it hurt la.
omg.
sentosa tomorrow.
i'm saving money.

baby and i were shopping in ntuc for our picnic that was supposed to be in the botanical gardens.
but we were lazy to go all the way there,
so we came home,
and had our picnic in my balcony.
haha
it was fun.
and we were both excited to change our wallets.
we boh bought wallets yesterday.
and when we went for dinner,
we persuaded mei to buy the one she wanted.
so we all have new wallets.
haha.
a baby's wallet is the most expensive.
teppanyaki for dinner yesterday was yummy.
but mei couldnt eat fast enough, so her food was piling up i front of her,
and she got scared.
haha.

2008-02-17T23:28:00.013+08:00

my shopping.

the bible.
mango scarf
monologue leather cover book.

my new guess wallet.

watercolor pencils
the wedding

mascara, the new lip gloss i love.

toodles!

(wait till you see my blackberry curve!!!)

2008-02-14T02:34:00.005+08:00

happy valentines day!
i cant wait to wake up tomrrow.
its 2.25am now,
cant sleep.
baby came over today.
we cooked lunch.
super yummy sambal prawns and oyster sauce veges.
love it.
and we were talking like jamie oliver.
'gorgeous aint it?!'
haha
thats how he speaks all the time.
tomorrow, thank god i can get my cheque, then i'm going to bank it in at liat towers,
create my account.
good!
so i can finally get my money by monday, latest.
shopping here i come!!
i already know the first thing i'm going to buy.
ok, first few things.
toodles!

2008-02-11T18:31:00.001+08:00

hello.
i love the song: love song by sara bareillies.
haha
ok.
so, yesterday, sunday.
its was the perfect day!
baby and i went to vivo first, wanted to watch a movie, but there were no seats to juno, like really, no seats.
so we went to marketplace and got strawberries, ($11.90 strawberries from korea, which were super yummy! not like the $5 shit egyptian strawberries i bought after that)
whipped cream, shaved ham, chips and water.
then, we cabbed down to the botanical gardens.
first time i've been there since they finised renovating.
nice, it wasnt that hot, because by the time we got there, it was like 4+.
so, we walked quite a bit, then reached the big field in front of the stage, and we sat on the slightly damp grass, and started our picnic.
haha
it was an unplanned picnic, so we didnt have a mat,
and we were jealous of the people behind us who had 3 big mats!
i was like, cant you see we're suffering.
haha
not exactly suffering la, but, sitting on grass.
actually, it wasnt bad, i was just wearing a dress.
i know.
and it was a slope.
and the grass kept tickling me.
haha
but it was good.
and fun.
and we saw all the dogs!
we love dogs.
haha
we always go to the pet safari at vivo.
i think the people remember us.

we walked the whole of the park, which is huge.
then walked out, and we were lost.
haha
walked to the nearby bus stop,.
and this isnt the tanglin mall side, its the back.
so, its like, almost a highway, but with some buildings around.
and we walked to the bus stop to look for a bus that goes to tanglin mall,
but we found none, so we walked quite far after the bus stop,
and finally found a cab.
then to tanglin mall, it wasnt that far la.
$5.40 cab fare.
wasnt too bad.
then we walked the furniture shop.
the big, crazy expensive furniture that has the ottoman style chairs and sofas that i absolutely love!
you know, those with the button-like thingies in the fabric, so it looks lie, there are alot of thumd tacks in the fabric?
anyway, i love those chairs.
and there was alot of art
it was like, ikea, just nice.
and super crazy expensive.
it was all designer furniture.
gorgoues pieces.
love it.
then, when we finally walked the entire shop, we got hungry.
imagine how big the shop is.
oh, and i need to the the eye thing, for when you sleep, you put it over your eyes, cuz i need something to keep my eyes closed, so i can sleep easier.
haha
i have problem sleeping now.
like, 4 in the morning, i'm still wide awake,
waking up the next day, and its 3pm.
anyway, so dinner was korean food, at the food court
it wasnt too bad.
nice soup.
then, home to watch the victoria secret fashion show.
which was SPECTACULAR!
i love love love alessandra ambrosio.
skinny hot brazilian bitch.
haha.
so, yesterday, was the most perfect day ever!

omg.
i hate chanel, my fucking cheque bounced, and hopefully, i dont have to wait till the damn end of the month, or i'm gonna pull my hair out!
seriosuly.
fucking shit idiots.
i hate cheques la!
why cant they just give me cash?!
stupid shit.

2008-02-11T18:31:00.000+08:00

2008-02-05T20:46:00.001+08:00

2008-02-04T00:54:00.000+08:00

spent the whole day at tampines mall with nicole on friday.
there was a crazy rain storm, and i freaking didnt wear my damn rain boots.
i wanna shoot myself. seriously.
haha
i might wear them tomorrow.
even if its shining bright.
i'm gonna wear them with jeans.
havent tried that out yet.

i just finished reading 'dear john' today.
and oh my god.
its such a sad story!
i feel more sad for john's father than i do anything else.
until the end, i cried my eyes out.
i seriously cant believe he sold his coins to help the man who married the love of his life.
he truly did love her.
but love the fact that she went out to look at the moon,
not knowing john was right there with her.
it was so romantic.
but he couldnt go down to see her,
it wouldnt be right.
he went to see her on his leave,
and he couldnt even go near her,
or touch her,
or kiss her.
it was so sad.
honestly, i could never be him.
well, i dont think so.

2008-01-31T20:20:00.000+08:00

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=pMlN25F5Dcw&feature=related
this is so cute.
you have to watch it.
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Q-VgX7xiTq0&feature=related

watch the puppy in the back around the 30 sec mark,
its so cute when it falls, i couldnt stop laughing.
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=-_eyxmRV9SM

2008-01-30T14:45:00.000+08:00

i'm supposed to be getting ready, but i'm excited so i have to blog first.
i'm going to get my pay!
haha
i know its nothign big, but i'm still excited about it.
like, finally please.
mable is getting her second pay cheque, and i'm getting my first.
haha
ooh.
i cant wait to go shopping now!
i dont know what i want.
but i was thinking, why dont i just buy myself the louis vuitton i want so bad and be happy.
right?
haha
but i want my wayfarers too.
ray ban wayfarers.
and the gucci glasses and sunglasses.
$400+ each.
:(
or my cyber shot T200 camera that i need so badly.
but i need a nice bok bag for school too, which brings me back to my louis v.
so...i'm stuck.
and i have money, which burns a hole in my pocket.
and i just need to spend it.
when i know i should just save it till i know exactly what i want.
which is so hard for me to do.
knowing me.
haha
and i'm sick.
and i'm depressed over my results.
and i hate the thought of being broke,
which, ironically, makes me wanna spend.
anything makes me wanna spend.
i'm a shopaholic.
my mum says its a disease.
i'm like, it calms me!
haha.
ok.
off to wheelock, 15th floor,
chanel office.
toodles!!

2008-01-29T01:34:00.000+08:00

i need a job man.
like, seriously.
anyone, give me a job.
i want lots of cash.
to buy lots of stuff..
ugh!
i need to shop to de-stress.

2008-01-27T20:35:00.000+08:00

i just realised,
i'm leaving behind, everything i've known for 11 years.
frieds, uniform, teachers.
everything.
i wont be taking 17 home from school anymore.
i wont be going anywhere near bedok because i have to.
i wont see that pathetic piece of grass we call a field.
nothing.
no more complaining about horrible food.
no more bitching over recess.
no more secondary school.
no more sac.
everything is gonna change, and it scares me.
like, alot.
after this, nothing is gonna be the same again,
after tertiary level, you'll be going to work, or university,
and we may never see each other again.
thats so sad!
ugh.
i hate this.
i want just one more week in secondary school.
with all the right people.
i'd give anything for that right now.
i'm gonna miss it.
i'm gonna miss everyone.
everyone.

2008-01-24T02:23:00.001+08:00

18th month anniversary today.
baby came over tonight,
waited till it was 12,
then he gave me my present.
this huge bear i named pancakes.
she's lying on my bed, and she takes up most of the bed.
its huge.
and he was like, 'if mummy doesnt let me come over, then i'll just give you your present at your door.'
and i felt so sad!
i didnt want him to do that.
haha.
but mummy let him come la.
and he came, even though he was sick.
aww..i love him so much la.
i havent gotten my pay, so i cant get him his present.
yet.
ordering it soon,
next week.
its the custom made, 14k gold version of our rings.

i am so scared about tomorrow. i dont even wanna go.
and i'm not taking off my nail polish, or dying my hair back,
or wearing school shoes. i dont have them anymore.
so, whatever.
haha
i jsut dont want my results back yet.
ugh!

2008-01-23T02:52:00.001+08:00

People have scars. In all sorts of unexpected places. Like secret roadmaps of their personal histories. Diagrams of all their old wounds. Most of our wounds heal, leaving nothing behind but a scar. But some of them don't. Some wounds we carry with us everywhere and though the cut's long gone, the pain still lingers.
--Dr. Meredith Grey

2008-01-22T02:18:00.000+08:00

do you really want what you already have?
you want something else.
something you cant get.
or haven't gotten.
so what?
do you throw away what you have and wait for something that might not come your way?
or do you realise what you have is what you want,
and nothing else can replace that, or take it away from you,
except yourself?
maybe all you need is a kiss,
from someone who you deisre.
to make you realise, what you really really want.

amoureux.

when he's talking to you,
and when you finally decide you wanna kiss him,
look at his lips as he's deep in conversation,
and suddenly kiss him,
deep.

2008-01-20T01:11:00.000+08:00

cousins wedding today.

it was fun.

four seasons hotel is gorgeous.

mummy mei and i had super expensive breakfast.

$15 pancakes.

$11 tea.

haha.

very very expensive.

but it was good.

the lunch was good too.

the pasta was the best.

love the chocolate fountain.

though i got sick of it fast.

i only had the strawberries in chocolate.

everything else tasted weird.

and today was the first day of 'that time of the month'.

yup.

sucks.

HOPEFULLY, chanel will hurry up and give me my pay next week.s

so i can buy all the things i need.

mostly want.

still.

i want my pay now.

and i need to find a new job.

one that i dont hate.

this is the reason i need my pay.
haha.
yes, the petit noe.
i know, i'm louis vuitton crazy right now.
its my fad.
i mean, i would get the $2000+++ balenciagas,
if i had the money.
but i still love these louis vuitton bags.
i carry my speedy, like everywhere.
even to katong to have laksa.
haha.
and the petit noe is a little bigger,
and its like, a bucket bag,
and a shoulder bag.
so its good when i'm lazy to hold my speedy.
of course, i want the stephen bag,
but, its like $5000++.
but seriously, i cant wait to save, relatively enuough,
so i can buy the vernis pochette wallet in burgundy.
the color is gorgeous.
$1050.
for a wallet.
but i promise i'll use it till it tears into 2 pieces.
which will be never.
:)

i bought a daisy plant yesterday.
its salmon pink.
$10.
from those kinda chinese new year flower selling tents,
that set up at the market.
really cheap.
i think i'm going to buy the big pot of tiger orchids, or whatever its called.
its like, this huge plant, fully grown,
and those are my favorite orchids.
and baby said i like white daisies.
so cute.
haha.
i mean, i dont have a specific flower i totally love love love,
but i do love white daisies,
he knows that, and i've never said anything about white daisies to him,
in 1 and a half years.
haha.
he's so cute la.

sorry i couldnt go to your party today, daphne.
i had the wedding to go to.
:(
we'll go out soon yeah?

tomorrow, sunday.
we're going to holy family.
and i'm going to wear my rainboots with skinnies,
weather its raining or not.
i have to wear them la.
they're so cute.
and such a fashion statement.
i know i have mixed up styles.
one day i'm this, next day i'm that, other day, i'm a total different thing again.
haha.
mix it up man, life's funner.

i'm thinking of getting a black epi speedy 30 and a monogram speedy 35.
but i'm still looking.
ooh, then i'll have the smaller speedy family.
haha.
the rest of the speedys are luggage.

2008-01-17T23:47:00.000+08:00

i miss:

subway with you.

copying your malay homework.

talking about stupid things during assembly, or whenever you were standing behind me.

sitting in the park watching things go by, talking about 2008, the scariest year of our lives.

telling you nokia sucks to get you worked up.

watching grey's.

sitting on a table next to you, listening to the waves crash on the sand, talking about everything, making memories.

telling you not to cut school.

us taking photos with your fabulous 10-shot camera.

fish&co.

watched american idol.
the people just get weirder.
haha.
out tomorrow.
wedding on sat.
cant wait for sunday!

2008-01-17T02:25:00.000+08:00

what i've been up to since quitting my job? -
-sleeping at 3/4am
-waking up at 3/4pm
-surfing justjared, people, myspace etc.
-shopping online
-dinner every evening

boring.
yes i know.
anyways, it was 85 for dinner tonight.
ate so much.
didnt eat all day.
only herbalife shake.
then tm.
where baby bought me the prettiest pair of earrings.!
and he saw his $59 umbrella.
and he's going to buy it.
crazy shit right?
$59 on a umbrella, well, its automatic.
too bad it cant fold itself back up, and slot itself in the cover,
then i would buy it.
haha.
then, home it was.
we watched american idol for a bit.
then he heade home to get some sleep
work tomorrow.
i serisouly have to get a job.
i havent actually went to look for one, but,
i will
eventually.
after i suffer the disappointment of the o'levels.
yes.
its coming.
and i know i'll be disappointed.
even though, i desperately want <15 points.
how is that possible?
i really dont know.
but i can only hope for the best.
omg.
and i'm going to get my hair done.
dye my hair black, or really dark brown.
with pink streaks.?
not so sure yet.
but, i think i wanna do it.
dark pink.
anyways, myspace is so much funner than friendster.
friendster is so lame la please.
and i am so bored.
ugh!
i wanna be rich and famous!!!

2008-01-15T14:44:00.000+08:00

i want my hair like that.
i didnt know she wasnt fully blonde.

cover of details magazine.

hot.

Versace ad campaign

spring summer 2008.

Patrick Dempsey.

Gisele Bundchen.

high school musical 3 is said to be released october 24th 2008.

and troy and gabriella will get separated for colledge.

YAY!!

tara reid is in bali now.

and omg.

she's so skinny la!

and joel madden is bad a diapers.

who cares right?

haha.

ok.

i was just reading all this

and i have nothing else to blog about.

so here it is.

toodles!

2008-01-15T01:21:00.000+08:00

back from vivo, centrepoint, plaza sing.
haha.
yes.
superdog in vivo, manhattan fish market in plaza sing.
(thats the closest i'll get to manhattan, for now)
today was good.
we went to vivo pet safari.
the american cocker spaniel is fucking cute.
if only it was a girl, i'd buy her.
but i'm considering buying him.
i mean, he's that cute.
anyways,
the golden globes got cancelled.
due to the damn writer's strike.
get over it man.
make more GREY'S ANATOMY, gossip girl, HEROES, all the shit that i live to watch.
yep.
they only made like, 10 grey's eps.
how sad man.
i gotta wait so long more.
but the winners of the golden globes got announced at a press conference.
how lame?!
like, no one really cares about the winners.
i mean, not THAT much.
we only care about what they wear on the red carpet.
the 'hits' and 'miss'-es.
but the stars had (un)globes parties this weekend.
hey! they gotta go somewhere.!
so, yes.
they had famous hollywood parties.
but, seriously.
dont you wish you were famous,
so you had red carpet events to wear your gorgeous dresses that are handbeaded by women in india?
leather heels that cause child labour?
(omg, i know thats mean, but its true)
purse that took a life of racoon/leopard/ostrich/peacock/etc.?
US$20,000 tiffany earrings?
chiristian louboutin heels?
prada shoes?
gucci scarf?
balenicaga dress?
all the expensive shit that we want?!
oh my.
i'd love to go to a red carpet even, maybe just once.
ooh...

i want to shop at urban outfitters!!!
i wish i lived in the states!
MABLE!!!
i wish i was a multi billionaire!!!
MABLE!!
i wish urban outfitters would deliver every single thing they sell to my house.
every season.
omg.
if every designer did that for me, i'd be the happest girl ever.
haha.
shut up.

ok.
about today,
i was waiting for baby to get his stuff from his teacher,
so i walked centrepoint.
it isnt too bad.
quite alot of stuff.
i wanted to do my nails, but by the time i got out of the toilet, (after finding the nail salon, i had to shit), baby called me.
so, we wanted to go to 85 for dinner.
but the trains were packed crazy.
so plaza sing it was!

omg.
i cant wait for the new balenciaga bags to come in!!!
i dont know if i should get the bubblegum pink city bag,
or the violet step.
i can get it from the states.
not telling you how.
but its either or.
i'm not sure!!
how?!
i want the magenta, but its sold out in the states!
like, before it even sees the lights of singapore.
a few might be coming in, but we're still not sure.
the store people dont know what colors are coming in and whats not.
i mean, our balenciaga store is pathetic, please.
i want the stephen from louis vuitton too.
but its $3000+.
thats crazy man.
i'm not rich.
anyway, the sky blue balenciaga, the color isnt too bad.
its quite dark actually.
not light.
but right now, there are 3 balenciagas i'm considering.
one brief.
2 cities.
wish me luck.

2008-01-10T20:46:00.000+08:00

i am going to call chanel tomorrow.
i promise myself.

tp today.
boring.
hot.
sweaty.

town with auds yesterday.
DFS sucks please!!
they made me go all the way down,
looking for the place in the rain,
and tell me that i have to be freaking 18.
shit man.
i think i'll call them tomorrow.
ask them again.
since phoebe can get it.
or, i might just ask chanel to post me to tampines.
then it wont be such of a hassle for me.
to wake up so early,
and take the train down.
ugh!
annoying.
but, no mable for lunch with.
haha.
i just want to work la.
if i can up to $100 a day, why arent i working.
but its not the christmas season,
so it wont be so much commission.
but, still.
about $50+ a day is good too.

ok.
i'm bored la.
nothing to type.
cant be bothered.
bye.

2008-01-08T14:42:00.000+08:00

patrick dempsy is the new face of versace.
milo and hayden are seriously, seriously, no kidding, a couple.
jennifer connelly is the new face of balenciaga. lucky bitch.
chace crawford and carrie underwood are my favorite hollywood couple. they're super cute together.
nicole kidman is pregnant.
the new bond girl, olga kurylenko, is quite pretty. but ugly at some angles.

i like some of the balenciaga dresses. the latesetones.
they're cute.
but some of the fabric print makes me wanna throw up.
but some are fine.
the suits are horrible though.
they have to most wonderful pants
and gorgeous chunky shoes.
i like.
i fucking cant wait for the damn bags la!!
they're bringing back the firsts.
but i dont want those.
i want the motorcycles and the briefs!
the firsts are damn puny la.
cant put shit in there.

2008-01-07T15:01:00.000+08:00

sentosa on saturday was super fun.
although i'm suffering from major sun burn now.
drinking and lying on your back for too long when the sun is highest in the sky (yes, i watched i am ledgend), not such a good idea.
and $28 fucking dollars for margarita is fucking crazy!
but it was good.
we caught a tiny baby crab.
i found it fiddling in the water.
and there were fish, and other , biggr crabs, which scared me and i started screaming like a mad person.
when 1/4 of the beach was looking at me.
haha.
the fish were really near the shore.
the water was barely near my ankles.
and these were like, 6 inch long fish.
there were the tiny ones too.
but we couldnt catch them cuz all we had was an empty bottle,
and the crab was already in it.
so, yeah.
then it started to drizzle, so we left for underwater world!!!
yay!
it was so fun.
i love the sea turtles.
i wouldnt dare touch the puffer fish and all the other fish in the tank where you can touch the fish.
and i wouldnt touch the stingrays either.
they look scary.
their eyes look scary, but from under, they look cute.
but there was thisone stingray that kept flapping water at the side of the tank,
and it would splash onto us.
haha.
it was cute.
then we saw the seahorses!
omg.
they're so pretty la!
they look so magical.
seeing one in real life is totally different.
like, you forget all about seahorses, then when you see them, its so cool.
they were yellow.
and its cute how they hold on to the corals.
the rhinoceres rish was funny looking, but nice.
and the jelly fish!!!
so pretty!
there was this fucking china bitch lying on the damn ledge in front of the jelly fish,
and i just stood right in front of the camera, and pushed her off the damn ledge.
i'm like, move bitch.
your fat yellow ass is blocking the whole damn tank!
fucking irritating i tell you.
and the woman who was taking the photo was like leaning on me.
cuz i was behind her.
and i just pushed her off real hard, and moved to the front.
CHINA PEOPLE SUCK.
ALL OF THEM.
they wear stupid looking clothes, and shoes.
thank god for the one child policy.
dont even know if that still applies.
china = fucking disgusting country with fucking disgusting people.
get lost man!
ugh!
the dolphin show was ok.
if only it wasnt raining, and we werent standing on a table under a tree where the water was dripping down my back.
but the dolphine were so cute!
and pink!

yesterday, vivo, again!
watched i am ledgend.
scary la!
then we stopped at katong to have laksa.
yummy!!!
i want some more now!
but i'm officially broke.
yes.
again.

audrey, weds ah.
you better.

2008-01-04T01:17:00.000+08:00

went cycling with baby today.
super fun.
pasir ris park is the tiniest shit ever please.
theres nothing 'cept sun, sand and surf.
not even surf la.
cycled for like, 1 1/2 hours.
was super fun.
the sea breeze never stopped.
if my fucking phone and cam could connect to the damn computer, then i'd show you,
but it cant so, too bad!

my life is full of nothing.
sleeping.
dinner.
miami ink.
LA ink.
kelly osbourne in japan.
blogging.
shopping.
lusting over the soon-to-be-mine balenciaga.
sleeping.
country club.
dinner.
movie.
sleep.
and in between that, all the
satisfaction,
is crazy.
haha.

like my new skin?
i absolutely love the brushes.
and i dontmind ashlet tisdale.
shut up la.
i fucking love the damn brushes.
enjoy!

2008-01-03T00:23:00.000+08:00

http://youtube.com/watch?v=kTLDLWhgV1c&feature=related

love love love this.

watch it.

love how he picks up her jacket for her at the end.

they're such a cute couple!

omg.

she's beautiful, he's cute.

very cute.

and yes, i am now in love with the notebook.

finally got the vcd.

fell in love with it the first time i watched it.

the vid and pictures are from the MTV movie awards, june 4th 2005.

they won best kiss.

i love the movie

love them.

i cant wait for time travellers wife to be out!

and someone, please tell me what the 'runner's high' is.

i really cant figure it out.

i bought my $339 diesel jacket on friday.

:) i love it.

denim cropped jacket.

totally cute with a dress

like, balance it out.

like, the rugged/pretty look.

so it isnt too much of one thing.

anyway, i love it.

been wearing it everyday.

tomorrow, running, sentosa (if the weathers good, and the money), the notebook again.

and i really, really, really need to get the balenciaga motorcycle bag, in black with gold hardware.

i saw this woman carrying it yesterday, and freaked out!

i need it.

desperately.

baby took me out to KFC for dinner tonight.

yummy.

played five,ten again.

in which i always lose.

he cheats.

i swear.

i dont know how he does it, but he cheats.

maybe i'm predictable.

haha

maybe.

watched national treasure on monday

spent new years in the cinema with baby and my sister.

haha.

how nice right?

ok.

i'm tired, and i have a headache.

toodles!

there you go auds, i blogged.

movie on fri ok? text me.

2007-12-26T00:23:00.000+08:00

i'm dying my hair back.
but like, really dark brown.
i cant be bothered to dye my hair blonde another time,
and after that, i'll have to do it again, because my hair is dark.
cant be bothered.
going to get the dye tomorrow.
doing it tomorrow afternoon.
christmas was no where near perfect,
but it wasnt that bad.
dinner at uncle's house.
was good.
watched videos of us from christmas 1993 and 1994.
and omg.
my sister had the fattest cheeks in the world!
seriously.
and my other cousin, was a grumpy baby.
haha.
it was so cute and fun watching the past christmases.
and i would always be wearing my orange guess jumper.
yes, i was 3, and already wearing guess.
haha.
it was super cute.
and i absolutely love my youngest cousin, she's 4.
and she's the cutest thing ever.
very pretty.
love love love her.
and my hot 14/15 year old cousins.
please, they're gonna be so damn hot in like 5 years.
they already are.
too bad we're related, and they're youngr than i am.
haha.
ok, weird.

merry christmas.

p.s i am in so much shit with my manager. seriously.

2007-12-25T01:22:00.000+08:00

i dyed my hair!
and i did it twice in 24 hours, and it still isnt the color i want
because my hair is dark, so it doent come out platinum blonde at once.
so i'm gonna do it another time,
or two.
haha.
bad.
i know.
but the color i want is on sale, 2 for $14.90
revlon colorsilk.
so its not TOO expensive.
i cant wait for it to be the EXACT color on the box la!
please!!
now, its not TOO bad, but i want it the color i want it.
and 'piece of me' by britney, is nice.
and hair sticking to your lipgloss is sexy.
like, a little bit la.
not a whole bunch of hair.
haha.
but its so damn sexy, i think.
i cant wait to have platinum blonde hair la!!
and blonde goes SO WELL with dark make up.
like, not gothic, but dark.
and i'm thinking of perming my hair again,
once i get the hair color i want.
like 2 weeks after.
my hair is gonna spoil like mad ok?!

AUDREY!!
we have to go out la. you ditched me on friday ok!
message me, call me, whatever.

2007-12-22T23:48:00.000+08:00

i love dita von tesse.

and marilyn monroe.

so now, i cant choose.

do i wanna dye my hair, or not?!

ugh!

2007-12-22T23:06:00.001+08:00

i skipped work today.

and i am in so much shit.

my manager called just now.

tried calling her back, but no answer.

oh well.

its totally unfair la please.

and how can they not give me my pay in time to do christmas shopping?!

i mean, seriously.

and how can my manager expect me to work a full shift, when i am a part timer?

and she can get two off days, for one day.

as in, lets say, you work on the 25th right, its a PH, so you get to take off on another day other than the 25th.

she did that for the 20th and the 25th.

but the schedule shows that she took off on the 10th and 15th respectively for the 20th and 25th.

BUT the schedule shows that she's not working on the 20th or the 25th either.

get it? i think mable, you will.

how fucked up is that man?!

and yes, she DIDNT work on the 20th.

ass hole.

anyway, went to tampines mall with mei today.

she got her christmas stuff.

well, i couldnt because i DONT HAVE MY PAY.

and how can i save when i have to eat out everyday.

and taka food is expensive.

so, none for me.

but i got my blonde hair dye.

like, platinum blonde.

got 2 boxes for $14.90.

so cheap huh?

some promotion or whatever.

got the revlon colorsilk.

anyways, i'm dying my hair on weds or thurs, for the new year.

def not christmas.

dont think the color will come out right by then.

got 2 boxes, so i do it twice.

because my hair is medium/light brown, the blonde might not be the color i want.

so just in case i have to do it again, i got another box.

i cant wait la!

i'm going for a 40s to 60s look.

like WW2 pin up girl.

(and it totally goes with the whole "i'm into WW2 sailors thing". yeah. i think WW2 sailors are HOT. like dont you want a sailor? those blonde, blue-eyed, hotties with the rock hard abs. and the way their girls run into their arms the moment they reach land again. classic.)

BUT NOT THAT FAR.

i mean, my hair, nails, make up.

but dont worry.

it wont be THAT dramatic.

dont expect to see pin-up-esque photos of me around.

haha.

no way man.

but i think its so classic, bombshell with a twist.

like blonde, red nails, heels, dark eye make up, natural lip color.

i cant wait man.

really.

but modern pin up girls, are just gothic sluts = gross.

those classis pin up girls have class.

but i really, honestly dont know why i wanna dye my hair blonde.

like, i absolutely love love lvoe my natural hair color.

really. i love it.

but i guess i just wanna try something new?

i dont know.

but brunetts have that, 'sophisticated' look.

like mysterious and kinda like 'you know you wanna get to know me' look.

they have that sultry look.

i'm referring to the pin up girls.

not the common people.

i mean, not everyone can pull off a classic pin up girl look.

or be a sophisticated brunette.

or a sexy blonde.

or a fiery red head.

not everyone.

i'm not even sure i can pull it off.

havent seen someone do it actually.

go for the classic WW2 pinup girl look.

at least, not in singapore.

one more point, in the 40 to the 60s, curvy women were the sexiest.

like, i am so serious.

they were the sexiest.

look at marilyn monroe.

she was a US12.

which is quite big.

2007-12-21T14:50:00.000+08:00

the spring summer 08 colors for balenciaga.

i want the black, (its essential) magenta and electric blue with the silver giant hardware

and the yellow with the regular hardware.

i have about 4 months to get 4 bags.

just nice!

havent thought about the color i wanna get the bal brief in yet.

the motorcycle bag is fun in buble gum colors.

but not for the brief.

the brief has to be like, basic essential colors.

i'll probablt get it in brown.

it looks better with the regular hardware than the black does.

and i;m beginning to call black 'noir'.

which means black in french.

see la.

chanel.

everyday go to the store room to get black mascara, eyeliner etc.

this is what its done to me.

noir.

pronounced; nuu-a-rr

and brown is 'brun'

pronounced; br-uw-n.

those are the essentials.

so, its all the same.

navy is still navy.

but sometimes they call it ocean, for the mascara.

2007-12-12T21:57:00.001+08:00

thank god tomorrow i am off!
omg.
worked one week, non-stop ok?1
ugh!
i'm gonna look for ano2ther job tomorrow.
at another luxury brand boutique.
i hate working at the cosmetic counter, and if chanel wont put me in their boutique,
i'll just go somewhere else.
my new manager sucks on top of that.
total bitch please!
hate her completely.
but i like my colleagues.
cecilia and dorine and debrah are soooo nice to me!
anthea is ok.
i dont know the other two.
but i fucking hate my manager!
fucking hate that motherfucking bitch.

i'm going to the other boutiques at paragon tomorrow.
i have to send in my letter of resignation soon, so i can not work during the christmas week.
unless i get a full time job at one of those boutiques, then i might be able to be off.
but i dont konw.
i just hate working in the cosmetic counter.
it sucks ok?!
dont ever work in ANY cosmetic counter.
you can never find the stock immed, you have to go in and out of the store roon looking into drawers, cupboards.
omg.
and skincare?!
dont even get me started!
and you have to remember the prices of all the products
and the codes!
i only know the cosmetics, some,
but i know nothing of the skincare and fragrance prices.
omg.
i'm suffering la!
all i get to do is clean and gift wrap.
gift wrapping is ok i guess.
i can tie super nice bows now!
yay me!
and i clean the fragrance like a pro.
and the cosmetics, (which i hate to clean)
ask me about the prices, i dont know!
but i like writing the memo.
everything else sucks.
ugh!
and working is making me put on weight.
cuz all i eat is fast food.
where am i to find healthy food in taka?!
omg.
and i keep cutting myself with all sorts of sharp things while wrapping.
my hands are totally sore from all the cuts.
i am so glad i'm not working tomorrow!
ugh!
someone save me!

nicole, EMAIL ME LA!! you know i have no time. i will reply when i can ok? promise.

2007-12-05T22:30:00.001+08:00

OH MY GOSH!
look at this.
really.
look at this!
i dont even remember it looking like this!
seriously, click on the link.
click on it!

http://www.channelnewsasia.com/fabric_popup.php?id=5510

its so damn cool la!

2007-12-05T01:00:00.000+08:00

someone tell me the breed of that puppy.

it is absolutely adorable!

so is chace crawford.

sucha hottie!

omg.

just look at the puppy's face!

doesnt it just make you melt?!

oh my.

i am melting.

look at its eyes!

oohhhh!!!

i wanna know what my christmas present is.

an i dont wanna go to work on thurs.

thurs to sunday straight ok?!

then i dont think monday will be an off day.

since i'm starting at taka.

oh my.

i hate standing at the cosmetic counter for 8 hours la!

but i earn $60 a day, without commission.

so, thats to ONLY thing i look forward to.

woking sucks man.

seriously.

i would totaly go to school if i earn $60 a day.

seriously.

its so much easier.

you dont have to stand in heels for 8 hours, straight!!

2007-12-04T14:26:00.000+08:00

http://health.msn.com/fitness/articlepage.aspx?cp-documentid=100176965&GT1=10710
for all of you who want great looking abs.
we shall follow this!
haha.

woke up at like 12 today.
feels so good man.
to wake up late.
and not worry about getting to work.
its only been 3 days, and i'm kinda dreading it.
i mean, its work.
so, yeah.
but i keep telling myself about that 50+ or 60+ i earn a day.
and that helps me get through it.
i need to keep my skin hydrated and blemish free though.
all the foundation is making me break out.
my mask feels so good and cold.
haha.
all my pores are sucking up the mask essence.
so i'll glow and have radiant skin.
i get to use all the lip gloss, eye shadow, lipstick etc. i want.
so thats an up.
i have to stand for 8 hours straight.
which sucks.
but i love selling stuff, and re-printing receipts.
cuz it gives me hope, of my commission
there were lots of japanese school girls and boys yesterday.
i think every school girl and school boy around the world,
is more or less the same.
i mean, they totally reminded me of my girls.
especially this group of girls which were laughing and talking so loudly, in japanese or course.
but it was so 'moosey' la!
omg.

mia, laura, nicole, daphne, debrah, sherie, we have to have another moosey outing ok?! we must! i love all of YOU! omg omg omg. i was in precious thots the other day, and OMFG! i saw a moose figurine ok?! i immediately thought of all of you ! omg. that would make a good present for all of you, if only it wasnt $45 a piece. we should have like, a club house. then we can display it. haha. we should have a serority or something! like, the "Mooses". haha. ok. lame.

audrey, you have to get out of your house, and we shall go out. lets have a christmas party! or a new years party!

nicole, you better get your ass back here so i can stop missing you and talk to you about everything! like my hair. haha. and i can tell you all about work.

i'm going out with baby today.
he's coming to pick me up then we're going to look for christmas presents.
and I GET TO CARRY MY NEW LOUIS VUITTON SPEEDY 25 DAMIER AZUR today!
yay!
like, finally.
almost a week since it arrived.
i want the damier ebony.
i like it.
and the fact that the handles wont change much.
and i like the mini lin too.
both colors.
but i really really really want the dentelle porte wallet.
please?
that would be the perfect, ultimate, best christmas present ever!
or the coach signature long wallet, the new one.
the one with the pink leather.
dont ask.
i just like it.
i think the pink is kinda nice.
really.
i am so attracted to it.
i dont know what baby wants.
i keepasking but he doesnt know.
how irritating right?
but i have like 4 thiings on my christmas list.
and i cant have all, but one woould be good.
even if it shared.
like if mei and basile shares that present for me,
i dont mind.
i mean, i still get what i want.
better 1 thins from my list than 2 things that i dont need/want.
unless its a Chanel bag in purple suede, the fall/winter 07 collection,.
i've decided not to put it on my list, cuz i'll NEVER get it.
so dont waste time.
these listed things, arent THAT expensive.
like if its shared, i might just get it.
haha

christmas list.
*- ray ban wayfarers, black.
*- louis vuitton dentelle porte wallet, gold.
*- coach wallet, with pink leather.
- the gold ring i want from that hawaiian jewelry shop.
*- gucci slippers. (i saw this woman wearing them on sat, and i fell in love with them!)
*- christian louboutins
*- iphone ver 1.1.2, unlocked of course.
*- balenciaga brief.
- the box sets of Grey's anatomy seasons 1,2 and 3.
- to spend one more week in SAC with my dearest moosies, subway buddies (i havent forgotten you olive. and cheese!)
- singapore to have 4 seasons, so i can wear the cutest coats and boots.

#@! -the (*) means that i'll pay 1/2 or 1/3.- !@#

2007-12-03T22:05:00.000+08:00

work hasnt been THAT bad.
the people are nice.
the floor manager is really really nice.
the chanel manager is really sweet too.
my colleagues are nice too.
everything is fine, except for my feet hurting like crazy.
and the language barrier.
like every 8 out of 10 people are japanese.
speaking japanese.
and i'm totally lost.
sucks, but i basically know what they're talking about.
Chanel is a universal language.
=)
haha.
started at 8.45 today.
had to go for the morning meeting.
then for like 4 hours, didnt have much to do.
painted my nails.
yes.
i get to use all the products i want.
baby and i went to breakfast and he sent me to work yesterday.
and he met me during my break!
i was so excited that he was there!
haha.
off tomorrow and weds.
thank god.
then 12 - 8 all the way till sun.
at least i'm earning money.
thats all i'm doing this for.
saving for my Chanel bag!
omg.
come to me baby!

baby picked me up from work today.
took 518 home.
found $10 folded into a heart lying on the lacerol in front of the counter,
so i softly pointed it out to baby,
and he took it.
duh!
and we had kfc fro dinner!
mummy had some too.
she likes the bones, so i left a little meat on them so she coould have some.
haha
we took it home.
was fun.

ok.
i'm so tired now.
have to sleep.
thank god i can wake up at 2pm tomorrow.
and laze around!
i kinda hate having to go to work.
even though it isnt THAT bad,
i just wanna laze around.
like i did for november.
haha.

2007-11-30T20:39:00.000+08:00

sick sick sick!
put up the christmas tree today.
all by myself!
yay.
start work tomorrow.
excited.
but i hope i feel much better than today.
hope it just doesnt get worse
had like, cake for dinner.
haha.
gonna make myself some soup or whatever.

i miss baby.
i put up a stocking for him.
:)

i did my french manicure like 2 days ago.
i love it.
i wanna do my toes too, but gotta wait till i have time.
i'm working from 12 - 8 tomorrow.
at DFS orchard.
come see me!
i've got lots to learn, and lots to do.
i'll know the rest of the roster tomorrow,
and this nice lady Nita (i think thats it) is gonna be working with me.
i think.
i'm not sure.
but i'll only be at DFS for a week,
then i'm moving to taka.
which i am so excited about!
baby has school tomorrow.
so i guess i'm meeting him after work.

my christmas tree is white and silver again.
with the white-y yellow-y lights.
you know.
and i hung up all the stocking on the barrister of the stairs
behind the tree.
you can see them all,
you gotta move at angles to see them all.
i like it.
i like my tree!

i bet i'm gonna die standing in my heels for 8 hours tomorrow.
but, i'm planning either not to eat, when i'm working,
or if i absolutely have to,
it'll be a salad.
like, something healty.
i need to lose weight for christmas.
and whatever.
gotta wake up at 9.30 tomorrow,
bathe, make-up, leave at 10.50.
hopefully, i wont be late on my first day.
and god, please let alot of people buy stuff, so i get alot of commission!
haha.
2% ok.
its quite good.
plus $6.50 an hour.
$8.75 over time.
ooh.
i feel like i'm making so much!
haha.
we'll see.
by the end of the month.
which reminds me,
i have lots of christmas shopping to do!

2007-11-29T01:01:00.000+08:00

doesnt she look gorgeous.

even when she's pregnant?

i love her. again.

she's so per-tty!

and very, very sexy.

look at that blonde hair, blue eyes, and brown eye brows.

it totally works for her though.

gorgeous skin.

2007-11-29T00:04:00.001+08:00

i got my chanel job!
yay!
i cant wait to start work.
i'll be at DFS for about a week,
then i'll be at taka.
and my louis vuitton bag came today.
and i officially have nothing to worry about.
wait, theres still my paypal.
and i'm still contemplating on getting my wayfarers of not.
i totally want to though.
i wont get it in stores, cuz they're like 200+
i'll get them online.
muc much cheaper.
mummy is gonna change my bank account,
to the one in my name, not a sub acc.
so i dont have to pay the $2 every month.
i was using her acc cuz i wanted the mastercard.
now, i can gat all the debit cards i want.
i'm gonna get my atm card,
and the DBS moneysmart debit mastercard.
so i can shop online.
:)